February 3, 2010
Through the day there are distractions and somewhat of a usual routine, going to work seems to help and I try and think positively about everything.
During the afternoon and night I’m “going home” to a house that isn’t mine, to a bed that isn’t mine, missing my wife and missing my children, whilst thinking positively throughout the day is relatively easy, doing the same of during the night is extremely hard.
At the moment this all seems like a bad dream, unfortunately one I just cannot wake from.
I assume things will get easier when I have my own place and more of a routine…
Thanks for listening.
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February 2, 2010
So this morning I went to counselling which I found immensely helpful, I tend to be extremely hard on myself… solely blaming myself for every situation and circumstance in life.
This isn’t to stay I am not blameless in the breakdown of my marriage, nor is this to say I’m the perfect husband/father/human, however for the most part I have said my piece that I want to work on it and myself and at the moment that is all I can do.
I need to focus on the kids and in the weeks I don’t have them focus on myself, my health, my mental sanity, it was suggested that I take up some activities in my free time whilst I don’t have the kids to occupy myself and improve myself which I think is a good idea.
I will be going back to talk next Tuesday to talk further.
Other news is I have found a place to live and I move in on Sunday, I just need to track down a queen sized bed for myself and a double bunk for the kids, buy some groceries to fill the fridge and I’ll be set… cash is really tight at the moment however with the help and support of my friends I am going to get through this.
Thanks for reading.
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February 1, 2010
I’m having a really hard time dealing with all of this at the moment, I had “the talk” with the kids yesterday and it completely broke my heart (they coped much better than I did)… On the way back to my mates place where I currently occupy a spare bedroom until I find a more permanent place I had bout after bout of anxiety attacks where I just felt like the world was collapsing in on me…
The whole thing is just fucked up to be honest, my wife is completely unreceptive to the idea of working anything out so as unfortunate as it is I think I’m just going to need to get my shit together, get setup in a new place and focus on the kids, my health and I guess work, hopefully that will be enough to stop me from going insane.
I just hate having a “que sera sera” attitude about life; the whole whatever will be will be philosophy is for chumps.
Posted in Blogs, Irony, Life, Luck, Parenting, Women | Tagged anxiety, family, health, men | 2 Comments »
January 30, 2010
So here I am back at my blog, I’ve not had much to express over the last year to be honest.
I have separated from my wife some days ago now for personal reasons I will not go into in depth on here, I’m very conflicted about the whole thing, my preference is to work it out however the ball is in the other court so to speak.
My main concern of course is the kids, I need to make sure that they are emotionally supported; fortunately my wife (ex?) is a good mother to them.
I looked at a rental property today that is furnished and fairly local to everything so here’s hoping that I can get it and start to get some normality back into my life.
More to come, these emotions need to get out somehow and better on here then somewhere more undesirable.
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September 15, 2009
So as you may or may not know Patrick Swayze has died; which is very unfortunate.
One positive thing about this is that he has now agreed to star in the up and coming sequel to Ghost “Ghost 2”; they are starting to film today (He did always go a bit too far with his method acting)!
Also, this just in: Patrick Swayze’s wife has just taken up pottery lessons.
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July 28, 2009
So today I had the pleasure (not) of working on a MAC.
I had to export mail from Entourage which is essentially Outlook for Mac… You’d figure this would be a simple process right? Export to a file and then import it to the other application?
Well you’d be wrong.
What a fucking piece of shit; you can export to a file that is ONLY compatible with entourage thus completely fucking you in the ass, you can also drag out individual messages if you wish which are (you guessed it) completely incompatible with anything other than entourage!
The only way to easily export a large mailbox is to setup an IMAP server, transfer all the mail over and then re-download it on outlook/another mail application on a Windows PC.
It just seems that program made by Apple or for an Apple make it their mission to make it so hard for you to migrate to another application or operating system thus forcing you to continue buying their overpriced under performing pieces of shit.
It’s the same with most apple applications; garageband is a classic example.
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January 19, 2009
You ever heard someone say something like “Let’s hope some good comes out of this person’s death, lets hope that there was some meaning, some substance and something we can all take from this person’s life”.
In the case of John Travolta’s son we can take some cheap laughs… let me help you out.
Joke 1:
Did you hear about John Travolta’s Son dying???I think they ruled out Saturday Night Fever however he couldn’t keep “Stayin Alive”.
Joke 2:
Heard there’s going to be a sequel to Saturday Night Fever. It’s one of those prequels, though – you know, like Star Wars.
It’s called Friday Night Seizure.
Joke 3:
What’s white, red, and surrounded by tape?
John Travolta’s bath.
Joke 4:
In loving memory of his son, John Travolta is set to release a new film at the end of the year, adding to success of the previous trilogy…
Look Who Isn’t Talking
Joke 5:
Following the sudden and well publicised death of Travolta’s son, it really set me thinking how cruel life could be, for someone so internationally famous to be cut down in their prime. I mean, who next? Goldie Hawn’s dog?
So bad that they surpass bad to become good…
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November 14, 2008
Transcript of a conversation between myself and a friend of mine below:
Roxy: Oh well, we may be millionaires soon…
Anthony: Yeah, infamous for chopping up babies.
Roxy: Nice.
Anthony: Then we will write a book about easy cook baby recipes from prison…
Roxy: Fetus Fettuccine
Anthony: lol, deep fried fetus feet.
Roxy: Toddler tagglioni, yum.
Anthony: Poached baby brains.
Roxy: Crispy skin new born with honey glaze and caramelised onion served on a bed of mash with rosemary jus…
Anthony: Nice!
Roxy: 5 seasoned rice with braised baby bowels.
Delish!
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November 3, 2008
Have you ever noticed how when women have children and especially during child birth they are given gifts and drugs and essentially anything they demand?
Then afterwards they always have this grip over men “Nothing is more painful than child birth”.
You know what ladies I don’t think it’s as painful as everyone makes out… I’ve been hit by a car, had my appendix cut out, had throat surgery which got infected and bled out twice I think I know a little something about pain.
It’s all a big conspiracy to have a “one up” on men… it’s general knowledge that women don’t control the world, however they control men.
It’s just one big fake puppet show out there people, open your eyes.
Posted in Angry Rants, Culture, Education, Irony, Life, Rants | Tagged Stir | 7 Comments »
October 28, 2008
Ever said a comment that didn’t go over too well? Ever tried to recover from that comment only to have the hole you are digging get deeper and deeper?
I’m fairly good at putting my foot in it; it’s a skill…
So I’m at a wedding on the weekend and sitting across from me is this girl who is looking at me… after a while she speaks (transcript below):
Girl: Did you go to XYZ High School?
Anthony: Yes
Girl: Did you hang around XYZ people?
Anthony: Yes
Girl: You don’t remember me do you?
Anthony: Can’t say I do…
Girl: I’m Jenna; I used to go out with a friend of yours…
Anthony: Jenna? Jenna Jenna? Holy Crap I cannot believe it; you sure turned out well, I mean in comparison to how you looked at school you’re gorgeous.
Everyone else at the table: *Looking at me as to say Oh My God*
Anthony: I mean really, it’s a compliment, I remember you having pimples and braces, you’ve turned out nice.
Girl: Ummm Thanks.
Yep, that went over so well… What the hell was I thinking?!
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